I try

Dear daughters,

I know that right now as I stumble through being your mum you don’t see anything but how I am letting you down. My prayer is that when you are older you can look back on your childhood and see that in every moment I tried. I did the best with what I had in that moment.

I’m sorry if I worked too much. I’m sorry for all the moments I was too preoccupied with the million things running through my head that I didn’t hear what you were saying to me. I’m sorry for saying I would and then not doing it. I’m sorry for being so tired at times that I cried or yelled. I’m sorry for not being the perfect mum that you both deserved.

In every moment though I was loving you with my whole heart.

All my love,

Mum